I go through a phase every few months where I research all different types of graduate programs and try to figure out what I want to do with my life.
I know I definitely want to be a mom (which is great because there has been a baby wandering around here lately), but I also recognize the need to have marketable skills. Also, constantly learning is incredibly worthwhile. I miss school a lot! I always loved it. Always is a stretch. I hated biology and social dance. What is the connection there? Mating rituals? Social dance was talked up so much at BYU as Da Best Class Evah. And then I absolutely hated the whole experience.
My problem is that I don't have my thing. You know, that thing everyone else seems to have and that they obsess over and are passionate about.
I once went on a date with a guy who was over the moon about being a paramedic. All of his stories had to do with calls he had taken that day or driving the ambulance through red lights. He even had the paramedic symbol tattooed on his arm. It's a good thing he was a paramedic. That's really one of the only symbols that can be pulled off as a tattoo. What if he had been an accountant? Or a grocery store manager? I can't imagine a calculator or check stand appearing quite as fierce.
I have often wondered since, if I were the tattooing type, which I'm not, what would I have tattooed on my arm? What is my passion?
You might say music, and that is true. I do love music. And it is one of my talents. But I most likely wouldn't get into a grad program for music. And besides what would my fierce-looking tattoo be? A a snake-laden musical staff? A piano engulfed in flames?
I have also considered linguistics. Programs require intense study of a second language, which I have. Besides, my second language is the ever-obscure Romanian, so no one would even know how unskilled I am at it.
So I am still trying to find my niche. Maybe I should start with---how does one pronounce niche? Is it "neesh" or "neetch" or "nitch"?
Thank you and good night.